Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Fasting Fears - Some thoughts from my fasting journal

The day before I started my fast I wrote several things in my journal, the first was about my fears. I listed three:

  1. caffeine withdrawal headache - mine are monsters!
  2. physical weakness
  3. spiritual weakness-failing, not making it to the end of the fast, spiritual attack     
First, the caffeine headache was there but not as bad as I thought. I had started to taper off caffeine and I was drinking a lot of water! Floating.

Second, I actually never experienced physical weakness. I didn't get dizzy or feel 'funny'. I actually felt good. That was a nice perk. 

Third, on the first day of my fast I was journaling my thoughts and writing out my prayers for the day (I highly recommend this) and here's what I wrote about failing:

"I haven't yet decided if I will do one or three days of just liquids to start
with. I don't want to make a commitment that I can't keep but I also have to 
remember that "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." 
So, is this about what I can do or what God can do? Since the whole point of this
is to see the workings of God - deep breath - I will step out ON FAITH and
do a three day fast."

It has been amazing to read my journal as I look back over the year. There were days of doubt and days of frustration, but many, many days of victory. God was faithful as he always is and he led me on a journey of faith and prayer that is still changing my life. 

I know him so much better now. I can't wait to begin this new fast and receive  the blessings that he has waiting for me. Do I deserve them? No. Will I earn them through fasting? No. Will I soak them up and bask in the love and delight of my Savior? Absolutely. 



I'm praying for you. 


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